Steve Rother – Greetings from Home. I am Merlia and I’ve come today to tell you a story. It is an interesting story that you might relate to. It’s about a young girl by the name of Alicia. Alicia had a wonderful set of parents that she chose. Having made her contracts from the other side of the veil, she decided to come in and play this game of pretending to be human.

As she came in, she was naturally divided into 11 different aspects. In the aspect we will focus on, she had some very magnificent parents that she absolutely adored. Alicia grew up believing everything that they said. Alicia, you are beautiful. Alicia, you are magical. Alicia, you can be anything that you want and she grew up believing that.

Empathic Alicia

It was not long before Alicia started going to school and interacting with other children. The first several years at school were good ones. However, in her third year there Alicia realized she had a different body type than most of her classmates.

Alicia was a bit heavier, because she carried more of her energy in her physical body. Her mother still told her, “Alicia, you are beautiful. Alicia, you are wonderful!” Soon Alicia stopped believing her mother and father, because her classmates were telling her something different.

Her early teen years were the worst. Alicia looked at all the other people that she went to school with and realized that she was different. Some of her classmates were particularly cruel, calling her names and isolating her from social activities. Alicia was not considered a popular girl. She once told her mother “I’m not like them, and even though you tell me I’m beautiful, I’m not beautiful.”

Her self-image  problem was compounded even more as her mother had a very attractive body. To make matters worse some of those kids at school started to pick on her, which you today call bullying. It is so magical for us to see that those words and concepts of bullying are coming up all the time on Earth now. Humanity is now reevaluating harming actions that were once considered to be normal.

Alicia retreated deep inside as a result of her bullying. Due to her energetic wiring she put on even more weight as she tried to deal with life. She retreated and held her energy tightly around her body and she knew that what her mother and father were telling her was not true. Alicia could live in that world when she was Home, but when she was in the outside world, it was quite a different story.

She was not able to see her beauty. She was not able to be that person that her mother told her that she could be at any point and her father was always telling her, Alicia, you can do anything. She did not feel that way and withdrew further into her safe shell.

One day her father found Alicia hiding in her room. He knew she was beyond the normal pep talk he gave her and they had a good talk. He said “Look at how good you are at school and particularly good at math. You’re amazing. I don’t even understand the math. He would say, but you do. Can you teach me?”

He lovingly have tried to encourage her as best he could, but Alicia would simply say, “you know, that’s just my parents. They see things differently. They love me but that’s not who I am in the world.” She had an incredible lack of self-confidence and as time went on, she became a teenager and she fell into depression.

What you would today even call it clinical depression, very challenging for Alicia. She didn’t know what to think of it. She thought she was horrible. She retreated to her room and anytime her mother would start to tell her, oh Alicia, you’re so beautiful today. She would just completely shut it off, wouldn’t even allow her mother to finish the sentence before she would turn and go hide in her room, pulled herself in completely inward.

Depression is the creative force going inward

When the creative force doesn’t go outward it goes inward, humans fall into what you call depression. It is like putting on a set of gray glasses and everything that you look at becomes gray. Everything that she used to do for fun just didn’t have the sparkle anymore. She used to enjoy music. She loved math and going to school. She was an example for other students and sometimes her teacher would even say that, “look at Alicia, look at how she does this or that”.

Her math teacher would say “if you have any difficulties with math go to Alicia and she will show you how.” Then they would snicker behind her back that would make her feel horrible. There were times when she thought about leaving the game and taking her own life. She didn’t know if she could honestly take this energy anymore, but she stuck it out and she worked with it as best she could.

Over time, she was able to isolate herself and protect herself from those negative energies. But there was one person, a year older than Alicia, who was considered the most beautiful girl in the school. Her name was Juliann. In high school, everyone looked up to Juliann because she was so incredibly photogenic and beautiful.

Even as they graduated high school, she was the one that dominated the high school yearbook. Her picture was everywhere because she was involved in quite a few activities and was very popular.  She would always tell Alicia that there was something wrong with her. “What’s the matter with you?”  She would say. There were even times when Juliann’s friends would ask her why she picked on Alicia so much and she would respond in anger that Alicia just bugged her so much that she could not stop herself.

Alicia dreamed of the day that she would come up to this girl and be able to say something to her that would make things right, that would make Juliann understand. She never did, and even after leaving high school, going on through college, Alicia learned how to stay out of the limelight, how to retreat, how to pull completely in. The image of Juliann haunted Alicia as she grew older. Every time she’d look in the mirror, she would hear Juliann’s voice.

Throughout college, Alicia learned how to be a part of things but mostly keep to herself.  She made a few friends in college which helped quite a bit. Here, she gained a little bit of confidence. At this time Alicia was looking for what she was going to do in the world. She had many possibilities with her skills in math but they all seemed dull and not exciting.

Alicia Finds a Key

Then, one day Alicia’s neighbor came over. She was the same age as Alicia in her early thirties. She was very abrupt with Alicia and said, “I see what you’re doing and I see who you are and they don’t match. You’re just so magical. Your life should be easy and not hard.” Alicia could not take that. It was very much like her mother. She just couldn’t hear it, but then her neighbor continued, “you know, my daughter’s having great difficulties right now. She thinks she’s ugly. No matter what I do. I can’t seem to tell her who she really is.

She is also having great difficulties with math. Would you talk to her Alicia? Would you help her with math? Would you help her get past this next level, see if we can do something, because I know she’s very depressed and I’m worried about her.” Alicia agreed to it hesitantly but it was under the guise of being a math tutor. Her daughter was just turning seven years old and had a body type very similar to Alicia’s and it wasn’t long before the two girls started talking and Alicia was able to turn this young lady around tremendously. It gave both girls strength and confidence.

Alicia Steps into Her Power

It was fascinating how it worked. Alicia felt empowered for one of the first times in her life, not because of something she did for herself, but because of the energy she was able to give to this young seven-year-old girl.  With Alicia’s help this young lady was going to be able to avoid many of the challenges that Alicia had to endure growing up.

Alicia became aware that if she had not gone through the challenges that she had she would not have been able to help this young lady. She was very proud of that. It wasn’t long before Alicia started looking around for places where she could do this again and she went back to school. She went back to college to get her degree in psychology and she took a job as a high school counselor and math tutor. She became engaged in her work and even volunteered some of her time.

But before long the administrators in the school system started seeing how powerful she was and how she could change lives very quickly. They made a special position for her to move around to the different schools with her work especially with girls who needed confidence with body image.

Alicia became very good at seeing the signs of young children retreating like she did and it was not long before she wrote a book on it. She called it Reflections in the Mirror. Alicia drew on her own experiences growing up and especially with Juliann although she changed her name in the book.

Alicia Re-unites

At a very early age of 42 Alicia fell ill with a terminal disease. After going through her stages of grief, Alicia accepted that it was time for her to go Home. Even though she was very young, in some ways, she had completed something very important and deep within her spirit she was all right with it. Alicia did not have to wait long and in less than a year Alicia passed on. As she died, something happened.

When you’re born on this planet, you split into 11 different dimensions of time and space, all walking around making different choices and having different experiences. Over here you might be economically impoverished and over here you might have an abundance of money. You have all these different experiences. But as soon as you die, all of those come back together in one spirit.  They all come back together into the core personality.

Alicia was able to see what happened as she left her body. As this took place Alicia saw something that took her attention.  One of her own aspects was a person who looked and acted very similar to her nemesis in high school, Juliann.  As the aspects came back together she understood for the first time who that person was and why they did what they did. It turned out that one of Alicia’s aspects had a very similar life as Juliann.

Alicia was able to let go of all of it at that point because she knew she had these experiences and none of them were right or wrong. She was part of it all, and even this person that she could not stand. Even this person she had to get away from. She even realized that that was probably one of the reasons that she had this contract with Juliann in the first place.

So as Alicia returned Home, she was greeted by her father who had passed on several years before. He was one of the people that quietly encouraged her every chance he could and told her how incredibly beautiful she was. When he met her, he welcomed her Home and let her know that all of it was all right.

No matter what dimension of time and space she was in, no matter what experience she had, she was the bully or the person being bullied. Whether she was the perfect person or the person who thought that they were totally imperfect, all of them were part of the same spirit.  All were reflections of the same light. Alicia learned a beautiful lesson. All of it is light. Find the light wherever you look and you will be Home. Whatever it is that you fear in your life, you very well may be part of that in another aspect of yourself.

Enjoy the journey and know that you’re perfectly on target. With the greatest of honor that I greet you and ask you to treat each other with respect. Nurture one another and play this game well together. I am Merlia. Come up and see me sometime.

Espavo

SF Source Beacons of Light Jul 2018